Specs Off!

Decided to take off my specs for my little camwhore session this time.

Don't freak out too much ;)

Really, I love my hair in this picture!

Resisted to urge to edit this picture just to show you guys the 'brownest' of my hair.

Nice ay!

 Sorry my hand is in the wrong position.

 :)

LOL. My editing for this picture quite fail.

 Okay I look gay max in this picture, 

but just wanted to post it cause my skin looks so tan and sexy 

HO HO HO.

Okay. A break from my face. Beautiful Sunset!

Failed attempt to add stars to my picture.

YO WANNA PIECE OF MEH!

I regret choosing this effect.

Makes it look like I never wash my face -___________-

Love this picture (Y)

Sunnies.

HELLO LOVE MY HAIR.

Again resisted the urge to edit this pictures 

cause I wanted to show you guys the slight brown in my hair.

It's natural ;)

OK U SATISFIED NAO?

HEHHEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEH

Just wanna say I HAVE CAMWHORED AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE YOUR LONG AWAITED PICTURES. MWAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH :)


LOL.



Hey, anybody wanna go watch my musical? It's a Cinderella play and it's for charity! On the 24th of December at Kenyalang Theater.





COME COME COME! :) Okay. I need to go to piano class now (die I didn't practise). Will upload pictures soon! xx

Okay seriously, why do I have no photos to upload?!

I am looking through all my old photos. Looking for some 'uploadable' ones.


Anyways. I was reading this book called "B4UD8" (Before you date) that I got from Logos Hope. And it's a really good book! There's a part on rejection where i think is really true. Quoting from the book


"Rejection is a self-fulfilling prophesy."


I was so happy when I read that because I keep telling my friends about self fulfilling prophesies and they are like yyyeahh yeahhh *sien face.jpg* 



What is 'self-fulfilling prophesy' anyways? It's an prophesy(prediction) you have that either directly or indirectly affects what actually happens due to your behaviour towards the situation. (I hope you understand my definition!)


Sooooo. The reason why rejection is a self-fulfilling prophesy is because of the attitude you have towards rejection.


Example: I won't ask her out because I'm afraid of rejection.


Therefore in the end you are already prepared for rejection and you act like you will be rejected. So you act like you're already a reject, therefore the girl you like can feel/sense your rejection, SO YOU WILL GET REJECTED.


Okay. You probably don't get it. No it's not because my explanation sucks okay -_____-

THATS COS U SLOW.

Okay. some old pictures.

 My "There will be a better tomorrow" face. Me gusta.

 A song I wrote a long time ago :)

The failed 'thinking' look. My finger looks so ghey. (I didn't say gay :P)

I actually have a lot more pictures in my uniform. Some really nice ones.

I took with the DSLR.

BUT MY MUM DELETED IT. 

WHY

I HAVE NO IDEA.

:)

HAHAHHAHAH AHLIEN!!

HAHAHHAHAHA I FOUND THIS SUPER AHLIEN PICTURE OF MYSELF!

JUST WANTED TO SHARE IT WITH YOU GUYS CAUSE I THINK THIS IS TRES FUNNEH!

I took it 2/3 years ago? HAHAHHA.

HAHAHHAHA NERHHHXXXZZZZZZZZZ ^^v

Human Nature

When we see someone do something we don't like/wrong/that annoys us, what do we do? Do we turn around and say:

"Will you please stop doing that?! It's annoying!"

No. Probably not (Close friends and siblings are an exception). Well, maybe in nicer way.

"Hey, erm, don't swear at the teacher lah. It's kinda rude."

No. We don't do that either. 72% of the people would choose to

STAY QUIET.

Okay. There is nothing wrong with staying quiet. I mean it would be kinda sorta rude if you tell them right? What if they end up hating you? Might as well keep quiet right? Tahan for a while.

Nothing wrong with that. 

But the problem here is. People don't tell the person TO THEIR FACE. Instead, they like to talk about it BEHIND THIER BACKS. Okay, not pointing fingers. I have to say, I have done it myself as well. I'm sure everyone has. After all, it's human nature right?

GAH. What is this gayness. Why are we made like this? Why is this called human nature? We are not suppose to talk behind peoples back naturally. So why is it called human nature? 

Because we were born with sin. Sin is in us. Since birth. 

Which means, talking behind other poeple's back (sin) is sorta well, 'natural'. Which also means, it's hard to change since it's human nature. Which meannnnnnns. We must put in more effort to change that old habit.

BECAUSE TALKING BEHIND PEOPLES BACK IS HURTFUL OKAY. 

And no, I am not some two face person who is telling you guys to stop all this and no doing it herself. Baby, I don't only talk to talk, I walk to walk ;)

So I am trying my very hardest to stop talking bad about people. I mean I admit I do. But I am trying to change. And don't forget change starts with you. If you won't change, don't expect people around you to change.

GAY MAX

WHY ARE YOU USING ALL THIS SLANGS WHEN YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO? OMGSH GAY MAX.



Oh and btw, the friend I was talking about in the previous post was Praj. LOL


Today's the last day of VBS, and it's so sad :( I'll miss all the children! Will upload pictures soon. Sleeping over at munsien's house tonight. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOTS!

I speak redundantly

WOOOOOOOOTS ALEX GOOT! ;)

Okay. Wrote a song. Well not really a song. Just lyrics :)

Caution: EMO SONG.

Pretend (An Original)

Selflessness, something I've been looking for

Fake smiles, fake laughter

Why is everyone playing pretend?

Avoidance, hesitation
What are your intentions?
One minute you're here the second you're not.



Chorus
Am I arrogant enough to think that I'm the one you're talking about?
Is it really me, or is there someone else?
I'm lost in this web of confusion cause,
You left me hanging with all these unanswered questions.

Is there really a need to play pretend?
Who are you exactly, are you more than a friend?
Why all these question, why are you leaving me to guess
Why won't you just tell me straight and direct.







That's all I got for now. What do you guys think? :)




(Original lyrics for the first line of the chorus: Can I be a little 'perasan', to think I'm the one you're talking about. But couldn't find the english word for perasan. Went on facebook asking everyone but couldn't find the perfect word. Sad. So my friend gave me better lyrics. Thanks LOL)

OMGSH tmr is the last day of VBS! :( 

Alex Goot!

Nia told me to check Alex Goot out and OH MY GOODNESS he can sing so well! And he writes his own songs as well! OMGSH loooovveee! And he can play the piano, drums and guitar! Striving to be like him! AND I AM SERIOUSLY IN LOVE WITH HIM NOW. HE CAN SING SO WELL. AND THE SONGS HE WRITEEEE ♥ ♥

This song is pretty upbeat, but this is my favourite (taking a change from my usual sad songs). 

It's really a song you MUST listen to cause it's seriously nice.

This song is... not bad. Slighty different from the other songs he writes.
The others are more upbeat. This is slower but
WHAT ON EARTH
why is he so talented? He can play the piano so well!

What I like about this cover is that they changed the rap.
And the two other guys singing in it are really talented too.
You should check their channels out too!

OKAY. THIS SONG IS UH-MA-ZING. Nuff said.
Must listen to it okay!!

PLEASE CHECK OUT HIS YOUTUBE CHANNEL
He totally deserves more views!







Some other YouTube vids ;)
All of them are really nice. I guarantee satisfaction.

You guys should all know her, super talented and pretty.
She taught herself the piano and she has an album already.
This is one of my favourite songs in her album so check it out! xx



Jayesslee! Their voices are amazing! Indescribable!

So you guys are seriously bored this holiday right? DO NOT FRET! Go on YouTube and check all this YouTube singers! They are soooo talented! AHHHHHHHHHHHH



I wish I could sing as well as they can :)

Favourite YouTube Celebs

Not in any particular order. Upon Request!

David Choi

AHAHHA. So cute! xx I started listening to his songs last year and I fell in love! His songs are like addictive. I like him because he's lyrics are really meaningful and creative, and his voice is like so sexy lah. The style, the way he sings/his songs sound is also different. Like his sad songs can be fast. Bet you have never heard anything like that! His new album 'Forever and Ever' was released just recently and because it's really awesome. Okay seriously. I can't keep my eyes off the picture above. Adorable much? ♥

Okay another way cute picture of David <3 

Oh and it just happens that both pictures are er, what do you call it, moving? LOL 

KevJumba

How can you not love KevJumba? He's videos are like so funnnnnnnehhh! Especially the ones with his dad, go check them out. (and Sarah he cut his hair!) He is Chinese WOOTS ♥ (racist.) I used to like him more, when he's videos were more... er child friendly? He swears and everything more now :( But nevertheless he is still adorable. Heh.

Nawwwwww ♥






Jason Chen

He's one of the reason I started stalking all this YouTube celeb. It started when a friend tagged me and a video of a Just A Dream cover by Jason Chen and  Joseph Vincent. Then I started checking Jason's YouTube channel out and I realized he sang in chinese too OMGSH ♥ That's when the stalking began. He can play the violin and he's learning the guitar. He studied in UCLA. Okay. That's about all I know. I forgot his chinese name. But it's like cool too. He's voice is really mesmerizing. He writes his own songs now, the newest one is Best Friends, I linked it in another post. GO CHECK IT OUT YO.

HELLO WHY IS HE SO CUTE?!

So here are my Top 3 YouTube celebs. I realized the are all guys. Heh. Other YouTube celebs you should check out, Megan Nicole, NigaHiga, Chester See, Jayesslee and Sam Tsui. 

Sorry, too lazy to link them all. Just go to YouTube and type their names out lah. So lazy for what?

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WOOOOOOOOOOOOO

LOOK LOOOOOOOOOOK. THAT'S MY COMMENT OH YEAH BABEH. *happy*

WOOOTS. A closer look!

Woots. My comment is top! Happy. Like so happy. Yay I love David Choi! xx Go listen to the song Missing Piece, it's really nice :)

Found this really old picture. Edited it so it'll look better. 

xx love you.

So like, erm hey.

Hello. Only blogging cause Amanda asked me too. Just back from VBS, very tired. Some kid started calling me "Eh." So then I was 'Eh" to all his friends too. And then "Eh" became "A" so then they were all "A for Apple! You are an apple!" or "A-eroplane" etc.


But there's one kid who's like so fail.




He was like.








A for A-lephant!



HAHAHAHHA. And I was all LOL WTH!?



Okay. That's the joke of the day. Still working on my teaching aid for tmr, I'm going to teach all the adorable kids about Friendship. Gonna use a few vids from the Notebook Babies.

Haha. Go check out their channel on YouTube. Super cuuuteeeee!


Life's been pretty good to me. Except from the fact that I am soooo exhausted. Both physically and emotionally. Learning to appreciate sleep!

Found this picture thing on tumblr. 

It couldn't have explain the hurt of the past any better.

Okay. Brace yourself. The emo bit of me. The past. Honestly, right now, I have no super sad or horrible past I want to forget. The past has always been pretty good. I'm more afraid about what I'm getting myself into. I'm afraid for the present. What if I do the wrong things? What if I mess up? What might happen? I'm hanging onto life with questions and doubts. WHAI AM I SO GHEY?!?

OH. DID YOU KNOW ALOE VERA HELPS REDUCE PIMPLES?! OMG! 

MY NEW BEST FRIEND!

Cause I'm Shi Qi

Why hello there ;)

Thinking of changing my blog URL to causeimshiqi.blogspot.com. What do you guys think? Because people are going about telling me how gay my current URL is, so I've decided to change it. Should I? Leave a comment in the chat box! 

Okay.

I forgot to mention this yesterday, but my performance (year end) went pretty well. Except where I laughed when I'm suppose to be crying cause Nelson's face was too funny. Hehe.

Extremely busy this holiday. Have VBS next week (A camp for children in my church, I'm a helper, as well as a teacher *proud*) - Have to prepared a teaching session as well as the drama BY THIS WEEK!! my Cinderella Musical coming up soon (Tickets anyone?), Christmas up soon and I'm stressing over so many other little things in life.


I really need a break. Can I escape to some abandon island just by myself so I can hear myself think?! Everything is clouding my thoughts. Breathe Shi Qi, breathe!


I like the word breathe. It's a word we use so regularly, but yet to me, it sounds really... special? I just like the sound of the word. Say it out loud!


Breeeeeaaathheeeee ♥



Listening to David Choi's album preview now. All the songs are so nicee. You guys HAVE to check it out!





The lyrics of this song is what caught me. So check it out!
Esp you Nia! Idk why, but I think you might like it :)

Okay. Now I'm all emo. Great.

Last Day Of School

For the year. Mixed emotion. Well, not exactly. Felt pretty low when I had to say my goodbyes to everyone! Joyce is leaving to Australia. Like permanently. And although I'm not like super close with her, it's still sad because she's a really cheerful happy person who's really nice to be with. I mean whenever I see her she's like smiling and laughing. Now what is up with that? LOL




So Joyce, if somehow you're reading this :)

You're one of the most cheerful, happy person I've ever met. Somehow when I'm around you it's hard to be sad (oh no I sound like a lesbo) You're really pretty (really) but you're not the type of person who scream I AM BEAUTIFUL AND YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT. You're beautiful quietly, on the sidelines, both inside and out. So have fun in Australia, don't ever forget your crazy, perasan, hao lien friend (that's me!) I'll miss you to the core.




I miss everyone already. Sad. Sad. Check my facebook for photos from the field trip. Added more today. Alright. Gtg.


Check out Jason Chen's new song. It just came out a few minutes ago! :D

Best Friends - Jason Chen

It's a must watch. The music video is cute to the max.




Okay bye! xx

Memories?

Had a great time today. Was a ghost at the haunted house, it was really fun seeing people getting scared. Then we had rehearsal for the drama we're putting up tmr (for the year end assembly!)

Really busy. Physically and metally. Promise to blog more after all this madness is over.



Recently life has been a big question mark to me. I know I'm suppose to be living for God but I'm letting all this other stuff get before Him.



Bye.

Life is a pao

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAAAHAHAHAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAAAHAH. Funny stuff. Pao.

You know where I got that "Life is a pao" quote from? Some random peep who added me on facebook. In her info box she wrote "Life is like a pao". 

HAHAHAAHAHAHHAAHAHHAH.

I have remembered it even since.

At school now. Suppose to be looking for some info about the museum we went to yesterday. My groups museum is The Chinese Museum. Gay.

I want to run away and hide in your arms. WOOTS. Gay. I love James Bond and socks.

 Love you.

Today is a great day!

WOOTS! The field trip was way better than expected. Had a really fun time visiting all the museums and historical places in Kuching! We went to so many places we never though existed and they were all pretty clean (hai ya, I expected it to be dirty mah) and pretty cool! But it was all quite funny because we were acting like tourist, even more sakai than them. LOL



Took a tons of pictures with Annabelle's camera not mine (cause her's is HD!) so I don't have much pictures with me now but being so kind I edited a few and I'll post them up.

More to come xx

Please explain to me this feeling I'm feeling

Not I take that back, I don't want you to explain it to me. Mixed emotions. Feeling mad at a person, feeling confused about another, feeling helpless to someone else.



I'm mad at person number one because he/she is really getting on my nerves. Her/his 'fakeness' is seriously turning me off! Sometimes I really can't hold my tongue. Sometimes when you ask me about that person, all the mean things come out of my mouth. I can't really say that it all came out unintentionally though. It's just a inevitable feeling! !@#$%^&*()


So here I am, resisting the urge from typing all the horrible things about him/her.




The person I'm confused about, it's really a pretty long story. It was all happening so gradually I didn't notice. Well, okay, I did notice. I pretended not to. And then we started hanging out, it became a routine, but I don't want it to be a routine because routines are hard to break. She/he is like a really good friend. Sorta.



The last person. Is someone I love. Like crazy. Woots. But he/she is like sad (I think) but he/she won't tell me why. So I feel seriously helpless and useless lah. Like why can't I cheer her/him up?! GAY.




Field trip tmr! To some really weird museum. But still feeling sorta excited :) Heh.

I LOVE YOU JESSICA!

Last day spent with Jess. Feeling sad now because I will miss her so much. Today was the best day spent with her! Belle, Amanda, Jess and I, we went to the mall doing a bunch of crazy mad things. Acting all bimbo in front of people. I even went up to a guy and had this fake British accent and told him Jess wanted a photo with him BUT SHE DITCHED ME AND RAN AWAY! So in the end, I ended up taking the picture with him.


We talking to a bunch of random people (with my fake accent - I love it!) and we made so many friends! Random people. Like this dude who's a dancer and is having a competition tmr. And this other dude who thinks I'm mad cause I keep telling him weird things like: "Did you know my friend here is a model of a magazine?"


It's cool how with an ang-mo accent you can get away with anything! We went to buy some food and so I was all faking my accent going all: "You Malaysians are really friendly!" And they were all like Oh okay. And the we're all laughing at my accent, And I was all: "What?! I just want to buy some food! Why are you all laughing at me? This is so not funny!"


The laughed even harder. HAHAHAHHA. And Jessica was laughing like a mad women and they were like all staring at her. Anyways, after we left we said bye to everyone and they were all like waving and all screaming BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!


ANG MO ACCENT FTW.


Anyways, today was crazy and I had a blast. I love you Jess xx

I love you strong strong.

Maybe

Today. Everyone is going on about making a wish. After all it's 11/11/11. But for me, I rather not make some wish, but instead I wanna cherish today. Since today's date is pretty cool.



Today was pretty unforgettable.



Why is everyone skipping school?! Anyways. Today was a pretty good day, even though most people did not come, being in a small class with a few people is actually pretty fun. You get to know hang out with different people and get to know each other better.


Okay, not because I'm superstitious or whatever, but I set this post to be posted at 11/11/11 11:11 PM. Cause I think it's cool and whatever I think is cool and obviously I'm cool so that just totally proves it all.


I have no idea what I'm saying.

HAHA! Awesome much?

Okay bye guys. Happy wishing and whatever. I'll be sleeping if you need me ;)

Facial

HEHEHEHEH.

After reading Nia's post I am so going to get a facial. Sounds so soothing! WOOOOO! And I've been trying everything to help reduce my eyebags. Nothing helped. So yay! Glad I found something! Thank you Nia! ;)

I did horribly for exams this term. Well not horribly. Just bad. Gay. Was expecting better. Although I did improve in a few subjects, the subjects I didn't reeally bother thinking about pulled me down. Like ART. Omgsh. And Maths and DT. So gay lah.



Okay. Bye.

Too soon

Don't you think we've all grown since last year? Physically, emotionally, spiritually, mentally. I remember the very first day of school, I didn't want to go. I've heard so many rumours about Lodge being a rich kid school, so I was afraid I wouldn't fit in. 

HAH. Was I wrong. I love my school, wait I take that back, I love my class and the people in my school so much! xx

So many things have changed since I was in Year 7, even more things since Primary 6. Some good, some bad, some unforgettable, some not worth remembering. But time seems to passing by too fast! I can't believe that it's November already! That I'll be going on to Year 9 next year. WHY IS TIME PASSING BY SO FAST?! Regretting not spending my time wisely.

Jessica is leaving. Feeling really sad now. I'm really going to miss her. I just hoped I had more time with her, to get to know her better. Oh wells, I just hope she'll be happy back in England! I love you Jess! xoxo

#emo

I laugh at myself

Quite irresistible. 

This post is to Amanda. 

To today. 

To my stupid assumptions. 

To one of the most humiliating thing I have ever done. 

To you being my witness.

To you promising not to tell anyone or I will eat you alive.

To the pillow I used to hide my face.

To not laughing at me for the whole time.

To being the second to hear about your 'good news'.

Love you! xx

A duck clucked at chuck

Eheh. That rhymes. I so smart.

<3

 Laugh.

Yes, yes you took this Amanda ;)

And this.

MY PHOTO EDITING THING CAN'T WORK. 

So no more pictures. For now. 

Sorreeeeehhh.

Left Out

Rant rant rant. It's quite pathetic. The life I live. Gay. It happened quite long ago but I'm grounded. Idk if I mention it before on my blog, but it's for the stupidest reason ever. It's because I went to K-Box. 

WHAT THE SWEAR WORD.

Hah. Stupid. Not only is the reason stupid, the punishment is too. I'm grounded for the whole year! Like what the swear word?! And it's not like I went out secretly! I was suppose to go for a movie with my friends but the tickets were all sold out, so we went to K-Box instead. And I told my mum! I didn't hide it from her or anything!

NOW WHAT DID I DO WRONG??! IT'S NOT LIKE I COMMITTED A CRIME!

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. And all my friends are going out, going to parties, hanging out after exams. And I'm stuck at home like a sad #foreveralone person. Every time someone asks me to go catch or movie or to go to a party, I have to turn them down. And in the end, they stop asking. I feel like burying myself in a hole. Feeling so left out. I don't know what the heck my mum is trying to do. It's like she doesn't want me to have a social life.

I told Liew Jiek's mum about it and she told my I should probably tell my mum the way I see it. That I didn't keep anything from her. That I told her the truth. I did try to try. But everyone I try to talk to my mum about things like that, I don't know. I just can't put it in words. Either I chicken out, or I get so so mad. Every time I try to tell me mum how I feel, I end up screaming and crying. And she ends up winning anyways. So what is the use?

I know the do this because they love me. Ya da ya da. I don't feel the love! All I feel is hate! I try not to. I pray. But gosh, this is so hard. I can't understand why they are treating me this way. 

I think I'm retarded. 

!@#$%^&*() I so feel like swearing now. Can't take this injustice!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Hai. I haven't showered yet

Hah. #smelly. Came home and started writing the script for my church's Vacation Bible School. Which is supposed to be completed long long ago. So I came back, wrote the script, ate dinner, and then the actors (kids!) came and we rehearsed (so chaotic) and we just ended so here I am, blogging and smelling absolutely fine.


Eheh.


My friends all decided to ditch my at school today. Great.




OH I GOT 89 FOR GEO. Sorry. Felt like I had to tell someone. Very happpppyyyyyyy! :P Okay. I need to take a bath cause I smell so nice.






But first, a few random pictures I found in my iPod. All this are really old pictures. *Warning*

Okay back when I was crazy for him. Tried to edit my picture and paste it beside his. 

FAIL.

A better one? :P

HAHA Ting Jin and Jia Yi's profile picture the same. 

My iPod is retarded.

 I cropped Taylor Lautner's face out and put it in this background. 

Not bad ay? Looks quite real? ;) *rasa bangga* (correct word?)

awwwwwwwwwww.

 Eh. I actually really like this picture :P
I think this looks tumblr-ish.

<3

#foreveralone

YAY. THIS PICTURE LOOKS COOL.

LOL. Suku Kia added me.

 HAHAH unicorn!

 Seriously. The weirdest wi-fi names ever.

My chinese hand-writing used to be quite nice. Eh sad.

Kay. Bye. Need to shower. I smell horrible.