Accomplised

Fixed my follow button and I added a twitter badge :) YAY. Feel so happy now. Hello my darling blog. I have missed you.

Hmmm what should I blog about?

Exams are coming up soon. And I'm too lazy to actually study. Well, I did try! Finished studying half a chapter of Science :P eheh.


Lalala. I am bored. Should be studying. Sigh*'

Erm. Hi there.

Death

I'm sure all of us fear death. I know I do.




But if you're sure your going to heaven, why fear? I mean if we all believe that we would 100% end up in heaven, why do we fear dying? Shouldn't we be happy to die instead? After all, going to heaven is the most wonderful coolio amazing exciting thing EVER! It's the best place you can ever wish to be in!


But why do we fear death?

Maybe because, we aren't certain if we would end up in heaven? Maybe because we look at ourselves and think we're not good enough? Maybe because we know that we aren't acting/behaving the way God wants us to?

I'm not sure if I would end up in heaven. I want to, of course. Everyone does. But I look at the way I act, the person I let myself be. And I think. Nah. I don't deserve to go to heaven. I haven't fully give my life up to God, no matter how many times I say it in my prayers, no matter how many times I read it from my devo book. And I think that's the major problem.

That I know HOW to be sure I'll end up in heaven, but yet I let all this things distract me. 

"You're not suppose to put God first in your life because first might be second, the ranking might change. 

Put God BEFORE first. 

Don't arrange time for God. 

Make sure there already IS time for God. Always." 

- Louis 

My friends said something like that, not exactly, and it has always left an impact in my mind. I want to put God before first, but do I? Want to make sure there's always time for God. Easier said than done, no? I can keep wanting. And never do anything. I need to act!


Have you ever fear that someone close to you might pass away before you show how much you appreciate, show you loved to them? I have friends whose family has passed away. Sometimes it's so sudden, that you weren't prepared for what was going to happen. We all have read from somewhere, or saw a movie when someone passes away and the people around them are crying, talking about how they did not see it coming, how they wished they said I love you, how they wished they did what they didn't do. They fear what life would bring after the person is gone.



But what I fear most, is where we/they end up after death. I'm afraid.

I forgive you. Already had. So long ago. I just miss you.

Love for God

I know I said I would take a break, and I will! I need it. But just wanna drop by and say

Don't you think that God is at work here? 

Here we are, a group of bloggers, in our own little world, where we share our inmost secret feelings and just blog about our thoughts. But one thing that has caught my eyes, is that. Here we are.


All talking about. All understanding. All loving. All sharing about. God. 


It's in our blogs, that we are unashamed to blog about our love of God. It's in our blogs, that we share and help each other out. And that is just super amazing. And I think God is seriously working it all of us. And that's just like oh my gosh, super super cool! I mean who thought, when all of us started our blogs, that we would have this little clan of blogger friends(or whatever you call it)? And who would have thought that we would be here sharing our faith, openly talking about God?


But here's a challenge for you today. Why not get out of your comfort zone, which is in front of the computer screen and do what God wants you to do? Share about God to your friends that are NOT in this little group of blogger friends? Why not openly talk about your faith to your other friends? Why just do it merely in our blogs? God is calling us, to share His words. Not just in our blogs, but in real life too! Face to face with our friends. I know it's hard. Gosh. I know. I've tried. And often end up in an argument with my friends. And you must be thinking now. Hah. ShiQi fail!

Well, you should not get into an argument lah. What I'm trying to say is we might fail. Our friends might not believe us. They might laugh at us. But by just planting that little seed in them, by opening their eyes to something they never knew, by just saying God Loves You might just make a difference. It might be a small difference. But still. It's something!


So go on. I dare you to go tell someone about God.

#foreveralone

Everytime I log into my blog, I become all sad and stuff. So Mike, the reason I seem so different from school is because when I log on blogger, and I see all this lovely dovey posts by so many of my friends, and then I feel so #foreveralone. Or, I see all the emo post and then I feel '#foreveremo'. 


GAY LIKE WHAT.


Gah. I feel like everyone is ganging up against me. Probably just me and my over imaginative ideas, but I just wanna crawl into a corner, burry my head and cry. I think I cry too much. But it does feel like that. Like I'm here all alone, on my side. #foreveralone. I suck. I want to scream my thoughts out load, but I can't seem to put it into words. sad. sad. I need someone here so so much. But people I trust and love are just vanishing like that.


I'll probably stop blogging for a while. Can't stand this anymore. So peace out. Love you guys to bits. Please don't stop stalking me. I'll update as soon as I can. Promise.

Signing out, 

Shi Qi

OMGSH can't believe I wrote my name in the end all formal and stuff.

I am seriously gay. Seriously need a break. 

For you to smile

Today during bible study, Aunty Miriam was talking about how God is ALREADY THERE waiting for us, His hand reaching out to us, He's just waiting for us to do our part. To reach out to Him too! And many people have talked about this in youth, ICF, church service, but idk why. I LOVE listening to things like that. Probably because it's like a reassurance that God is really there waiting for you to reach out to him.


At times like this I really really really really REALLY need God.



Anyways. The song I wrote. It's inspired by my best friend, about how much he loves this girl, and how all he wants for her is to smile and be happy (at least I think/hope that is what he wants for her!)


So inspired by him, dedicated to her. Dedicated to all the people who likes someone now too :)

For You To Smile ( An Original)

When we fall in love

We can't choose

Can't choose who

Love is something so

Beautiful

Just like you

Le Chorus

I will do whatever

Just to see you smile

Even just for a while

And I will never

Let you down

Noo, I won't let you down

All of this

For you to smile

For you to smile x6

It's been so long since I wrote a complete song. Feel so accomplished! Even though the lyrics are really simple. But I like the verses. I think it's really something we've all face before? Especially the first verse? 

Distraction

Had a really really cool bible study time at youth today, I'll share about it later, but just wanted to talk about a small part of it now. About distractions. And YOU are one of mine.


I don't really know how to put it, but I'm really trying here. And if you don't even bother I wished you would just tell me in my face. I am sooooooo *inserts words that I can't think of to express how I feel*




GAH.



WHATEVER. I wrote a song :) Might post it up later. Might.

You are my strength

When I have a really bad day and I'm crying my head off, I tend to forget how blessed I actually am, and that if I think of it as a whole, it's not really a big matter. And I had a really good friend who pointed it out to me. Thanks :)

Well, recently, I had a really really bad day. A really bad way to end that day. A really hard time. It's like the little little things that hurt me, suddenly just all came to me, and I broke down. And I was crying my head of, sobbing like mad.

And I kept praying and praying. And pleading. Then I remembered a song. "I would praise You in this storm" by Casting Crowns (I have a post about this song somewhere). So I picked up my guitar, shut everything else off, and sang one of the songs I think really spoke to me at that moment, 'You are my strength'. It's a song about God's love for us, about how he gives us hope and strength. And right at that moment, that's what I needed. Hope for things to get better, strength to face it, and love. I needed love. And God just gave it to me! <3

So check the song out. It's really meaningful. And I hope if you guys ever feel sooo soo down and you have no one to turn to, remember you have God. And remember that other people have it way worse than you, so appreciate what you have now. No matter how horrible or hurt or down you're feeling.

You Are My Strength

You are my strength

Strength like no other

Strength like no other

Reaches to me

You are my hope

Hope like no other

Hope like no other

Reaches to me

In the fullness of Your grace

In the power of Your Name

You lift me up

You lift me up

Unfailing love

Stronger than mountains

Deeper than oceans

Reaches to me

Your love O Lord

Reaches to the heavens

Your faithfulness

Reaches to the skies