Life's like that

My braces are killing me. Super painful. Just went for tightening and I can't even chew bread! GRRR.


So today was a almost normal day. All the Valentines Day hectic and feeling is gone. UNTIL something very siao happened. I can't write down what happen here sorry cause it's like embarrassing. Quite. It makes me sad. Not the :'(  type of the sad more of the :\  type of sad.




It's just something that was always there and I knew it was there but I never took initiative to change it cause I never thought it would affect me so much. And now I'm left regretting. Not that I care that much. Honestly I don't really care. But it's like I let other people down? As well as myself?





Anyways, Sien. My teeth are so painful now. Can't eat anything besides porridge. I think that's how I started to appreciate and love porridge HAHA. Cause it's the only food I can eat when my braces are killing me!

Never ending

So yeah HappyValentinesDayhowwasitdon'tfeeltooforeveralonekthxbai.



HEHE. K so I'm not gonna talk about all this Valentines Day stuff cause you've prolly heard it everywhere. But here a picture first so you won't feel to disappointed ;)

So. God has been so gracious, so merciful to me. I sometimes don't see what I have because I take what he gives me for granted. One of the biggest thing I've taken for granted are my friends. I mean they are so amazing I cannot even. And through them I realized that God has always got my back. Always. Sometimes I'm just to blinded by my fears, my tears, my doubts to see that.

So here. An amazing song for all you guys. I promise you, you will be touched by this song.

Kay blessed week ahead! ♥

Lost

Sometimes you get lost and you want to look for a way home but you can't find it. You feel so alone, so sad. You feel like tears will flood your sorry little eyes any moment.


And it's so hard to keep a straight face cause all you wanna do is cry and cry. And all you ever wanted is for someone to listen and hug you as you sob. But no. People ask if you're alright. They keep trying to comfort you which makes you cry even more.


I hate it. When I'm sad all I want people to do is hug me and let me cry. I don't want them to ask if I'm alright. I don't want them to look at me in pity. I don't want them to judge. Not only do they judge they talk about you to other people. I hate it.



I need God right now but I can't feel Him. And I want to cry because I'm lost emotionally and spiritually. I've been distant from Him now. And now I'm crawling back. Filled with guilt. I just can't feel him and I don't know why.




I don't want you guys to ask me what's wrong. So please. Don't ask. Cause I'm not gonna tell you anyway.

It's Friday!

Yeah. I love Fridays! Get to stay at home and relax and forget about school!

 

Maybe I'll have a movie marathon tonight! Alone. Sigh. I think I'm meant to be #foreveralone or something. Haha.

Don't feel like writing much today. Not in the writa-a-holic mood now. So here. A few pictures.

Breakfast.

Dinner.

Old photo of McD chicken. I want to eat it now.

So hungry now.

Stresses out

So many gay decisions I have to make. For example what subjects should I choose for Year 10. Which technically speaking is in 3 months time. FJLXCBASPNAMXPQLHDETFDVUR!!

I mean what sub combo I choose will affect my future! I wanna take Add Maths but my maths is horrible. I can't even do simple Algebra without losing my mind. How can I possibly do Add Maths? Then the other option is Geo. I should be okay with it but it might lessen my opportunities.

Gay.


WHY IS EVERYTHING HAPPENING SO FAST!


I'm a very indecisive person and I hate making decisions. I hate it. I always have the fear of making the wrong decision. At times like this I get very hungry and I eat.

HAHAHAHAHA. Yes.



I eat. I eat to take my mind of all this. I'm so siao.

Today!

Went for lunch at Secret Recipe with Liew Jiek, her mum and Liew Sheun. Had a really great time! I forgot to take pictures of the food so there's only a pic of the banana split we had.

Came home and I tried to film me singing A Thousand Years but I failed. I don't why I posted it on Facebook. Must be some adrenaline rush or something. Gay. Then I sat on my bed feeling freaking nervous staring at the phone waiting for a comment or something. Waited. Waited..

My brother accidentally took a picture of my instead of video taping it. 

Soooo check out my video and leave a comment? I tried to post it here but I can't. Sorry :\

But here's the link. Idk if you can watch it though.

Kinda failed attempt to sing A Thousand Years.

Thank you. Comments are very much appreciated! Ciao!

那些年

This is such a sad song  :'(

Chocolate addiction

That sweet scrumptious treat; one of the things that smells, tastes and looks amazing. Tasting all the flavours as it slowly dissolves in my mouth ♥

I love how chocolate can make you feel so much better after a fight, during PMS, when you're feeling down.




It's like my happy pill.




Popping in raisin coated chocolates in my mouth. This is one treat I will never get sick of.

Time flies even if you're not having fun

Can you believe it's FEBRUARY already?! In a blink of an eye the first month of the year is gone. I haven't even grasp the whole idea of going back to school again, still in my holiday mood.



Everything's just happening so fast! Sigh.



And I'm sure most of you have heard the 'rumours' about the changes happening in our school. I don't think I'm suppose to blog about it yet, but I just wanna say it's unfair and I am completely against it.





All this changes, everything happening so unexpectedly, so fast is driving me insane.