Saturday, October 29, 2011

What I do in my room instead of studying

1. Text

2. Sing

3. Camwhore

4. Call my friends

5. Sleep

6. Stare at my mirror trying to tie up my hair in different ways

7. Play my guitar

8. Stare at my mirror and make ulgy faces

9. Talk to myself

10. Draw hearts

11. Wash my hands (Hahaha. I know. So gay)

12. Daydream

13. Try to write a song

14. Walk around



You know, I just realize there is plenty of things to do in my room. I should really study. Gay. It's like everyone is taking their exams so seriously. Everyone is studying so hard. Everyone is stressing out.



And then there's me. Gay much?



Thursday, October 27, 2011

Distracted

Hai ya. I spent the whole afternoon facebooking and tweeting and stuff. Didn't even start studying my science yet. So fail :(

LE EXAMS

HAI. I AM HAVING EXAMS NAO.

DRINK LOSTA WATER CAUSE LE WEATHER IS VERY HOT.






Bye.

Monday, October 24, 2011

It's a girl thing

Caution: Content may offend some people. Read the title. GIRL THING. GIRL.



Rainfall. Also know as Pissed At Men Syndrome, Girl Thingy etc. So many nicknames. Should I really just say it out, bluntly? 

Okay. Brace yourself boys. I know you're still reading. Hah. This will be an eye-opener for you.


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Period. Some call it menstruation. I call it. Pain. That horrible feeling you get once a month, where the pain is sometime unbearable. Or sometimes, you get lucky and the pain disappears! *happy dance*




How do I overcome this gay horrible painful girl thing?
By eating chocolate (It's seriously helps! For me that is) Or screaming. Or hitting things. 


Effects of the gay horrible painful girl thing.
Irrational mood swings. I mean I can be happy all smiling for a while, and sad over something I remembered the next minute. The worst part is, sometimes I don't even notice. 


Cause of the pain in this gay horrible painful girl thing.
If you drink cold water/drinks. Fried stuff is bad too. I think. If you eat er what's the word, cooling things? I usually just say 凉的东西. 






Why oh why do I have to have this girl thing now?! I can already imagine, sitting in the examination hall, the pain too unbearable, can't concentrate on my paper. Freak out. Results out. I get a D. Have an absolutely good reason but it'll be embarrassing to explain! Dear teacher, I did bad because of period pain? Doesn't sound like a very good reason after I said, I mean typed it out. 



The horror. 




Yes. I know I think too much. 



Okay. I gtg try to *cough* study. Ending with a vain picture of me to brighten up your day. Hehe.



Sunday, October 23, 2011

To you

I wanted to ask you if you're okay, but that would probably be an understatement. I want to say all the right things to make you feel better but I don't know how. But don't you think this is unfair for me? All I try to be is nice but it's like you enjoy giving me the cold shoulder. What did I ever to deserve this?

It's a wonder that I still care. That I still try to think of ways to cheer you up.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

I SHOULD BE STUDYING

Too lazy for my own good. Crazy freaking purple pineapple pie.

Friday, October 21, 2011

Change

Change can be good, change can be bad. Change is the clothes you wear, the decisions you make, the words you say, the way you feel. We sometimes want change to happen in our lives. Sometimes we don't. Sometimes we change because people around us change. Sometimes we change without noticing. Change takes time. You don't realise it at first, until someone points it out to you.


We can't keep waiting for people around us to change just to suit us.
Maybe we're the ones that needs to be changed.






Change starts with you.

Toothpaste

Okay, can't blog much. Seriously need to try to study. Haha. It's Friday already! Can you believe it?! Time flies. Anyways. Just wanted to drop by and warn you guys about the dangers of toothpaste. (Refer to previous post) It does not help reduce the redness of your pimples or whatever. I applied it on my forehead, and it started BURNING! Like it was on fire. And it hurt alot -____________- And I kept trying to fan it to cool it down. Fail. Kept jumping around like a retard bunny on fire.


So. Don't try toothpaste. Stupid idea. Pfft. I wonder which idiot tried that.







Oh wait, me.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

THE ATTACK OF THE PIMPLE

You know I keep trying to study but I fail epically (no it's not epicly) because I'm too addicted to the computer.


Anyways. If you guys haven't notice. I have this weird red blob/spot on my forehead (yay me) and not only is it very eye catching, I can't hide it because of my longer fringe. Well, so I tried covering it with my hand and well, that's not a very smart thing to do, because I suddenly remember that you shouldn't keep touching your pimples. I keep trying to find the cause of this pimple attack, so if someone asks I can explain.


Maybe I could say it's due the the stress of exams. How I study too much. They might even believe it! People do get pimples because of stress right? I mean I look like the type of girl who would study like a mad person during exams! (I know you're coughing now) And then everyone would pity me and say: Awww! Don't study too hard lah! Later not pretty oh. Nvm lah. I'm sure you'll do well! You so smart some more!





HAH! Perfect plan. Thanks to my pimple people will think I am a hardworking person who studies too much. And has stress because of exams.






But ...you guys know I don't study right. So I can't fool you.


The cold hard truth. I've been eating chocolate/ice cream/fried chicken too much. All my favourite food are food that would beautify my face with pimples. And I don't drink enough water. So sad, no? I show these food love and affection and they gracefully decorate my face with red spots in return.



So I came back home and googled it. Hah. Funny stuff. I googled my pimples. Har dee har har.



 I clicked on a few links and apparently toothpaste is the best way to reduce the redness. I am so going to totally try. So if you happen to walk by my house, you'll probably see me walking around in my PJs with Colgate all over my forehead.
 

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Was going to do something but I forgot.

Hate that feeling -_____________-


Should be studying now. But I'm not. Hah. No drive to study. Anyways. Just read a few of my older post and I just realized I've been blogging since 2010 and I never really had readers till recently. My blog used to be more private, I could name the people who were being mean to me in it, could scream my thoughts in it, could write about how happy I was because the guy I liked talked to me in it, but now I can't. You see if I did name names, the person who I named would be offended. If I screamed my thoughts, again, I might offend someone. If I was jumping around (virtually teehee) about the conversation the guy I liked and I had, somehow he might know!


And I miss that.

Like I'm made of glass

Hi. I love you guys too much to totally abandon you guys for a week! *loyal blogger* In school now. Did some cooking for English class. I was in the same group as Darius and the food we cooked turned out to be an utter FAILURE. Which just proves how I can't cook. I need to cook more during the hols :(

Anyways :P came to school feeling sick. Like I wanted to puke but then again I didn't want to. WHAT TYPE OF GAY FEELING IS THAT.









oh kay. it's time to leave. kthxbai.

Monday, October 17, 2011

WHUT YOU WANT MEH TO BLOG ABOUT?!

Please tell me. Running out of ideas. Exams are coming up real soon. Not suppose to use to comp now *evil grin* but just wanted to drop by and say don't be expecting my regular daily updates from me cause I'll be busy studying trying to study :P And I won't be on facebook or twitter or tumblr (I'm going to lose so many followers!) too.



Trying to write a song now. Got the right chords, the right melody, but no words. So fail. Waiting to be, what do you call it, inspired? :)

Okay. Bye. Don't miss me too much.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Brag

Yesterday I have over a hundred viewer on my blog *happy* just fort that dayyyyyy! hmmmm. maybe my horribly gay skin does attract people :P




Anyways. Logging into my blog makes me sad because I seriously despise this skin -________- gay.

Okay. Just wanna drop by with a really cool verse pastor mention today in service:





Is anyone among you in trouble?
Let them pray.

Is anyone happy?
Let them sing songs of praise.

James 5:13



I think it's really powerful cause it reminds us that we need to/can talk to God when we're in need, and when we are HAPPPPPPYYYY! :) Read a more in depth post about the sermon here.

Anyways :P watched football last night. HA HA. And if you guys stalk me, you'll know that I'm no Man Utd/Arsenal fan. So why watch the match?
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I had nothing better to do. #sadlife


The match was such a waste of my time. Man Utd to Arsenal 1-1. And just so you guys know. I am NOT a supporter of Man Utd. All the other teams are fine. Except Man Utd. (Yeah I know. All you Man Utd fans out there are hating me)



OKAY. Let's talk about something interesting. Only it's not really talking cause I'm typing this out and you don't really have a say cause ...oh nvmind. I have nothing to talk about. Can you guys PLEASE leave a comment (thanks to my new gay skin I have a comment link) or something in my chat to tell me what to blog about? Ask me anything! I promise to blog about it! 



Peace. Still don't like my skin.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Attempt to edit blogskin: FAIL

I was editing my blogskin and I accidentally deleted some code so then the alignment when crazy with words flying all over the place. Didn't know how to fix it so I changed the whole skin. Was looking for nice blogskins couldn't find any, and I don't have time to try writing a skin from scratch or to edit the HTML codings and stuff so I used a blogger template. Looks really retarded, I know. The heading letters are too big. Trying to fix that now.


Will change my blogskin after my exams. Sigh*

Friday, October 14, 2011

Replies

Replies to posts by you guys. Sorry if I didn't reply all! Only replied those I could relate to :)


Nia:

YAY ABS! *so hot*  I like Taylor Lautners abs <3 cool people like the same things LOL. Oh, and I like your pedo face! Hahhahahahah!



This is my favourite Korean actor!


And he has abs too! :P *drools*




Anson:

Hey dude. Where's that totally random cool song you can't wait to show us? I'm waiittttinggggg! :) And good luck with your upcoming exams!




Jelly:
I read your blog post. Made me feel sooo sad :( It's true huh. So many people are leaving. I guess we just have to learn to move on :( Ohhhhh. I'm thinking of all my friends who are leaving too. So sad now. You are not alone! I can be sad with youuuuuuuuuuu.



Ian:

Hey. Thank you for saying I can sing well :P LOL And you can sing good too! Don't say it's not good enough! We all have our own talents/skills, we each can do certain things better than each other. Like how I can't kick a ball (no matter how I try I am just not good at it) and how I can't run. So yeah. Chill man. You are gifted in many other ways. Like you play guitar soooo pro! My goodness!


Oh and about you running out of time? I advice you to Speak Now. Should let her know before it's too late. Be brave! :)




Pearle:

Ai yo. Choose one only?! This is so hard T^T OH WHAI CAN'T YOU BUY BOTHH?! I would say DSLR? Cause Poloroid if you take a picture can't edit or delete or anything. And DSLR so clear and stuff. And can take really professional pictures. Poloroid doesn't have high resolution right? But then again, Poloroid would be sooooo cool. And the pictures would turn out soooooooo nice. And I would probably go after you begging you to take a picture of me #obsessedmadperson 





Yeah. You should prolly get DSLR. You don't want me running you down ;)





Thursday, October 13, 2011

*inserts cool title*

Hey :) Nothing much to say today. Feeling really tired. I'm going to say it again, I should be studying since exams are so near. But I'm too lazy. Sigh* 

Anyways there's this really cool blog I found recently and you should totally check it out. AngelKein 
Oh. And I added a few more peeps at my darlink section. So go check their blogs out! :)




Okay. Pictures. Yayyy.
Found some really old pictures I never posted. 
Was going to post more but my computer is currently going haywire on me.
La la la.

 *inserts cool captions* sorry. running out of ideas today :P


Are you think what I'm thinking :) 
*yay I look like i have dimples*


 Hey Anson! :D


yo bro.


Some beach in Hawaii :)


 My accessories! 


This was suppose to be posted waaaayyyy long ago. When my blog name was still pink tees :)
And yes that is me!


Super vain, photo I took after the Return Of the Glass Slipper performance.
Attempting to look cool ...or something. #epicfail
No, I don't usually wear make-up.




Speak of the Cinderella: Return Of the Glass Slipper Musical. We're having it again on the 24th of December!
Tickets are on sale and you can get them from me!
They are RM 20 and RM 50 sits. 
It's a charity concert and all the money collected would be donated to the Kidney Cleaning Association. 
( sorry. direct translation from Chinese. Don't know the proper English name)
This time there will be Christmas songs in the beginning, and then the Cinderella Musical in the end.
If you go, I promise you won't regret :)
So facebook me, tweet me, or just leave a mesaage in my chat box if you want tickets!






Ending this post with gay picture of Sarah (Y)

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Follow Me!

Helllo! If you read my blog and you like it don't hesistate to follow me! I would love to see who reads my blog and I would love to read yours! x



When I beat a boy at his own game (By sheer luck)

#1. Last year, playing futsal with the boys. And I acutally scored a goal. Woah. I was so happy. Like dancing around in the middle of the court.

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Turns out it was a hand ball. Ha ha. Oh wells. Then didn't foul me lah. Cause they were all hai ya nvm, girl mah. Which is somewhat insulting but still! I scored a goal. Even thought it was a foul. *inserts happy face.jpg*

#2.When I killed a person in Counter Strike. OH YEAH BABEH.

#4. Beat a guy on a game of X-Box Kinect Sports game. So happy.

#5. BEAT A GUY IN TEKKEN. (Fighting game) WOW. SO PRO MAN.

#3. TODAY! Okay really long story. Bear with me. Teacher asked us girls to go play futsal. So we were all like YEAH COOL. So we went. And I was the first there. So I was all kicking the ball with the guys before the game actually started then, Mr William suddenly shouted to me: Eh, Shi Qi, you go to the other court.


The other court was the court with little kids -_____________-''

I felt so sad. Like seriously. I was all am I really that bad?!? But to cut this long story short. Annabelle and Farah finally came (I had to wait for soooooo long!) And we started playing with the kids. Each of us were captains of a team. The first round I was in, my team (Coolest team ever. All the boys so cute. Heh) won 4-0 against Farah's team. I think. Second round draw 3-3. VS Annabelle's team.

Okay. Here comes the part where I totally rocked a guys socks off.

As you know Moses suppeeeeeeer pro and stuff right? Okay. Okay. Wait for the glorious moment. *drumrolls*

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I totally tackled him and kick the ball away. 


Okay. Fine. Yeah I know what you're thinking. WTH. That's so gay. Even my dog can do that. (No offence to gays and dogs) But to me, this is a glorious awesome cool super cooooool moment. Hah.



Okay. Bye. I got tuition. #sadlife.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

爱他,的她.

Love

Hey peeps. Nothing much to talk about so I decided to talk about something we probably have problems or whatever you call it with. Something we can all relate to, at some point.

I've always tried to define the word love. And I think the best definition is this:



Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 
It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7




So, hey after reading this. You guys sure the feeling your feeling right now is LOVE? ;)




Nia:  OMGSH you like KevJumba too?! He is like so cute :P And like NigaHiga! He got abs! hehehe.
YAAAAAYY!! We are pretty alike huh? :) cool. Yeah I would really reeeaaalllyyy like to get to know you better :) Idk why. You seem like someone I can tell all my secrets too :P hahaha <3 You are cool. I like you (my turn to sound lesbo.) And you're a pretty cool prefect. Should just ignore if the pple from my class give you a hard time. They are just plain mean! And you're right. They deserve it. I already told teacher to not show the names next time :3 Oh and I love your blogskin. I actually tried that skin out :P




Oh. And in the process of writing a song. Can't seem to find the write lyrics. So sad.



Oh. Kay. Adiós lovelies.


Monday, October 10, 2011

An Actual Real Post

Yay. I know you guys miss me :)


I've said it before and I'm gonna say it again, I should be studying now but I'm not. Anyways. 
What did you guys think of today's performance? In case you're not from my school, my drama club did a performance for assembly today: Karate Kid :) I guess I'm pretty satisfied! LALALLALALA.


Love my drama club! ♥ Everyone did so well! Love you guys to the core! 

I think the best part for me, is to see the audience laugh and smile and clap and cheer and even boo at times. Seeing their reactions to our performance is one of my favourite part :) It's one of the reasons I love performing I guess. Seeing the audience laugh/clap/cheer makes me feel that all the hard work has paid off. All the practises was worth it. Overall, today was an awesome experience! #IWillNeverForget


Okay. Planning to work part time during to hols to earn some extra cash :) My mum says the Benetton store in Parkson needs people cause they can't find workers during the hols. And I was all


THIS IS MY CHANCE. TO GET RICH.


Ahah. I mean earning a few bucks might not mean much to you. But I NEED CASH. Everytime I go out for movies/birthday parties, I need to use my own money, to buy tickets and pressie. Which is so saddening. *inserts sad face.jpg* 


(Another reason I'm bankrupt is because I spent $40++ on Roxy slippers because it was too irresistible! Got sale leh! But not a total waste. I actually wear them. Still. lesson learnt. I'm not that rich to waste money on things I don't need. Could have used that money to buy pressies for people I owe pressies to. Teehee.) 

Just realized I never got any of my best friends pressies. I am such a horrible friend -_________- 


I owe alot of people pressies (like I go pple's birthday and never buy pressie #evil) and Chirstmas is coming up soon. So I need moneyyyy! Hoping my mum would actually let me work. And that the Benetton person would actually hire me! Plus. If I get hired, I get to spend my hols in Spring. This is like a kill two birds with one stone situation. Yay.



Hi. What I have to say next is important. Please read. kthx.

Just wanted to ask you guys to do something, tonight before you go to bed, say a little prayer to thank God for all you have will you? Sometimes we don't really see how blessed we are. And we don't really thank God enough. But I hope you'll just take some time tonight to say thank you :)




Sometimes I really need someone to rant all my little insignificant issues to you know. Anyone out there will to lend a ear?

had an urge to post le awesome picture here. I know you laike.



To all the people who I haven't got a pressie for your birthday. I am like so sorry. Will get you one as soon as I get some cash. Especially you Joel. Peace out.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Accomplised

Fixed my follow button and I added a twitter badge :) YAY. Feel so happy now. Hello my darling blog. I have missed you.

Hmmm what should I blog about?

Exams are coming up soon. And I'm too lazy to actually study. Well, I did try! Finished studying half a chapter of Science :P eheh.


Lalala. I am bored. Should be studying. Sigh*'

Erm. Hi there.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Death

I'm sure all of us fear death. I know I do.




But if you're sure your going to heaven, why fear? I mean if we all believe that we would 100% end up in heaven, why do we fear dying? Shouldn't we be happy to die instead? After all, going to heaven is the most wonderful coolio amazing exciting thing EVER! It's the best place you can ever wish to be in!


But why do we fear death?

Maybe because, we aren't certain if we would end up in heaven? Maybe because we look at ourselves and think we're not good enough? Maybe because we know that we aren't acting/behaving the way God wants us to?

I'm not sure if I would end up in heaven. I want to, of course. Everyone does. But I look at the way I act, the person I let myself be. And I think. Nah. I don't deserve to go to heaven. I haven't fully give my life up to God, no matter how many times I say it in my prayers, no matter how many times I read it from my devo book. And I think that's the major problem.
That I know HOW to be sure I'll end up in heaven, but yet I let all this things distract me. 



"You're not suppose to put God first in your life because first might be second, the ranking might change. 
Put God BEFORE first. 
Don't arrange time for God. 
Make sure there already IS time for God. Always." 
- Louis 



My friends said something like that, not exactly, and it has always left an impact in my mind. I want to put God before first, but do I? Want to make sure there's always time for God. Easier said than done, no? I can keep wanting. And never do anything. I need to act!


Have you ever fear that someone close to you might pass away before you show how much you appreciate, show you loved to them? I have friends whose family has passed away. Sometimes it's so sudden, that you weren't prepared for what was going to happen. We all have read from somewhere, or saw a movie when someone passes away and the people around them are crying, talking about how they did not see it coming, how they wished they said I love you, how they wished they did what they didn't do. They fear what life would bring after the person is gone.



But what I fear most, is where we/they end up after death. I'm afraid.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

I forgive you. Already had. So long ago. I just miss you.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Love for God

I know I said I would take a break, and I will! I need it. But just wanna drop by and say

Don't you think that God is at work here? 


Here we are, a group of bloggers, in our own little world, where we share our inmost secret feelings and just blog about our thoughts. But one thing that has caught my eyes, is that. Here we are.


All talking about. All understanding. All loving. All sharing about. God. 


It's in our blogs, that we are unashamed to blog about our love of God. It's in our blogs, that we share and help each other out. And that is just super amazing. And I think God is seriously working it all of us. And that's just like oh my gosh, super super cool! I mean who thought, when all of us started our blogs, that we would have this little clan of blogger friends(or whatever you call it)? And who would have thought that we would be here sharing our faith, openly talking about God?


But here's a challenge for you today. Why not get out of your comfort zone, which is in front of the computer screen and do what God wants you to do? Share about God to your friends that are NOT in this little group of blogger friends? Why not openly talk about your faith to your other friends? Why just do it merely in our blogs? God is calling us, to share His words. Not just in our blogs, but in real life too! Face to face with our friends. I know it's hard. Gosh. I know. I've tried. And often end up in an argument with my friends. And you must be thinking now. Hah. ShiQi fail!

Well, you should not get into an argument lah. What I'm trying to say is we might fail. Our friends might not believe us. They might laugh at us. But by just planting that little seed in them, by opening their eyes to something they never knew, by just saying God Loves You might just make a difference. It might be a small difference. But still. It's something!


So go on. I dare you to go tell someone about God.

Monday, October 3, 2011

#foreveralone

Everytime I log into my blog, I become all sad and stuff. So Mike, the reason I seem so different from school is because when I log on blogger, and I see all this lovely dovey posts by so many of my friends, and then I feel so #foreveralone. Or, I see all the emo post and then I feel '#foreveremo'. 


GAY LIKE WHAT.


Gah. I feel like everyone is ganging up against me. Probably just me and my over imaginative ideas, but I just wanna crawl into a corner, burry my head and cry. I think I cry too much. But it does feel like that. Like I'm here all alone, on my side. #foreveralone. I suck. I want to scream my thoughts out load, but I can't seem to put it into words. sad. sad. I need someone here so so much. But people I trust and love are just vanishing like that.


I'll probably stop blogging for a while. Can't stand this anymore. So peace out. Love you guys to bits. Please don't stop stalking me. I'll update as soon as I can. Promise.

Signing out, 
Shi Qi



OMGSH can't believe I wrote my name in the end all formal and stuff.
I am seriously gay. Seriously need a break. 


Sunday, October 2, 2011

For you to smile

Today during bible study, Aunty Miriam was talking about how God is ALREADY THERE waiting for us, His hand reaching out to us, He's just waiting for us to do our part. To reach out to Him too! And many people have talked about this in youth, ICF, church service, but idk why. I LOVE listening to things like that. Probably because it's like a reassurance that God is really there waiting for you to reach out to him.


At times like this I really really really really REALLY need God.



Anyways. The song I wrote. It's inspired by my best friend, about how much he loves this girl, and how all he wants for her is to smile and be happy (at least I think/hope that is what he wants for her!)


So inspired by him, dedicated to her. Dedicated to all the people who likes someone now too :)



For You To Smile ( An Original)

When we fall in love
We can't choose
Can't choose who

Love is something so
Beautiful
Just like you


Le Chorus

I will do whatever
Just to see you smile
Even just for a while

And I will never
Let you down
Noo, I won't let you down

All of this
For you to smile


For you to smile x6



It's been so long since I wrote a complete song. Feel so accomplished! Even though the lyrics are really simple. But I like the verses. I think it's really something we've all face before? Especially the first verse? 

Distraction

Had a really really cool bible study time at youth today, I'll share about it later, but just wanted to talk about a small part of it now. About distractions. And YOU are one of mine.


I don't really know how to put it, but I'm really trying here. And if you don't even bother I wished you would just tell me in my face. I am sooooooo *inserts words that I can't think of to express how I feel*




GAH.



WHATEVER. I wrote a song :) Might post it up later. Might.

Saturday, October 1, 2011

You are my strength

When I have a really bad day and I'm crying my head off, I tend to forget how blessed I actually am, and that if I think of it as a whole, it's not really a big matter. And I had a really good friend who pointed it out to me. Thanks :)

Well, recently, I had a really really bad day. A really bad way to end that day. A really hard time. It's like the little little things that hurt me, suddenly just all came to me, and I broke down. And I was crying my head of, sobbing like mad.

And I kept praying and praying. And pleading. Then I remembered a song. "I would praise You in this storm" by Casting Crowns (I have a post about this song somewhere). So I picked up my guitar, shut everything else off, and sang one of the songs I think really spoke to me at that moment, 'You are my strength'. It's a song about God's love for us, about how he gives us hope and strength. And right at that moment, that's what I needed. Hope for things to get better, strength to face it, and love. I needed love. And God just gave it to me! <3



So check the song out. It's really meaningful. And I hope if you guys ever feel sooo soo down and you have no one to turn to, remember you have God. And remember that other people have it way worse than you, so appreciate what you have now. No matter how horrible or hurt or down you're feeling.






You Are My Strength

You are my strength
Strength like no other
Strength like no other
Reaches to me

You are my hope
Hope like no other
Hope like no other
Reaches to me

In the fullness of Your grace
In the power of Your Name
You lift me up
You lift me up

Unfailing love
Stronger than mountains
Deeper than oceans
Reaches to me

Your love O Lord
Reaches to the heavens
Your faithfulness
Reaches to the skies